READ OF THE MONTH

Hi lovelies,

After the demise of my live-in “forever” relationship, I became lost and was looking for answers. I was gifted a book, written by Gabrielle Bernstein, called The Universe Has Your Back. Desperate for clarity, I cracked it open, and flowed through the easy-to-read brook.

For those reading this that need a sense of clarity, peace, or understanding, I urge you to pick this up. I do not say this lightly, but this book changed my life. It touches on meditation, control, honouring your feelings, and the plan the universe has for you. Not necessarily always a “spirit junkie” myself, Bernstein spoke to me in a language I could understand, and through her writing, she made me feel cradled by the Universe during my own difficult time.

I have implemented Bernstein’s meditations and thoughts into my everyday life. I have allowed myself to release my control to the Universe, in belief that there is a plan greater than the one that I have for myself. This, in itself, has given me a peace of mind. I have been able to set free my anxiety, and in turn, liberate myself.

I leave with you a few of my favourite quotes by Gabrielle Bernstein:

• “In every situation, you will have two choices: will you learn through love or will you learn from fear?”
• “Practice saying this prayer before every encounter that triggers the shadows from your past, ‘I want to see this person for the first time'”
• “You have the power to create the world you want to see”
• “The key to serenity is trusting that the universe has your back”

Thanks for reading loves! What are your favourite books lately?

Speak to you soon xx,

SELF-LOVE & Depression

I am not looking to escape my darkness, I am learning to love myself there.

-Rune Lazuli

Hi everyone!! This post may stray from my lighthearted makeup posts, but I have some things I want to share with you.

As some of you may know, I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression in December. It was a dark couple of months. I had quit my job to focus on my mental health, found myself contemplating ending my life on the bathroom floor numerous times, and began hating myself for inflicting such emotional agony onto myself. These thoughts of self-hatred, anger, and pity spiralled me deeper into my depression. There was a point where I believed no amount of beauty could outweigh the tremendous pain in the world.

In an attempt to heal myself, I began expressing love and attempting to radiate kindness. I began volunteering, smiling at strangers, and taking the time to wish acquaintances happy birthday. I loved my friends unconditionally through their bad days. I lended them a hand to hold without judgement.

It was then that I relized that the only way out of my depression was to love myself through it as well. My depression was not a result of my brain trying to hurt me. My depression was my brain’s way of coping with the losses I had experienced. Depression is the way your brain copes, grieves, and, most importantly, transforms.

I didn’t have to “battle” my depression – nobody should ever have to battle themselves. I  had to accept that my brain was coping and I had to love myself through it. I had to be kind to myself, be gentle with my heart. Instead of hating myself for falling on the bathroom floor crying, I let myself sob, I cradled myself through it, and I congratulated myself when I stood back up. It was when I began to love myself, depression and all, that my depression began to subside.

My advice to you is to just love yourself through the bad days. There is nothing wrong with you just because you hurt. You are strong and you are capable and you are beautiful and YOU DESERVE YOUR OWN LOVE. For the people who struggle with depression, I had a girlfriend tell me, “The opposite must be equal”. We can feel so much hurt, but we can feel the equal intensity of love, happiness, and light.

…And then there was a moment on Tuesday where I heard the ducks quacking and saw the budding green on the trees and I thought: “moments like this outweigh the pain”.

Thanks for taking the time to read and I wish you all the beautiful light and healing xx,